Mike in York, UK 1986 On this Saturday, March 12th, in anticipation of the 10th anniversary of Mike’s death, I kept reminding myself that it wouldn’t be as painful as the day he died. Nothing would ever match the heartache and shock when I heard that he was dead. And it worked for the day…… Continue reading When Ten Years Feels Like a Minute in Time
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Christmas Changes Through the Years
Copyright Jennifer Mullins Christmas is a continually revolving season of feelings, depending on where we are on our journey. I remember the magical feeling as a child of being at the top of our stairs, waiting to open our presents. Since the tree was at the bottom of the stairs, my parents put up…… Continue reading Christmas Changes Through the Years
Friendship Gratitude
Friendship is a gift that I’m grateful for all year long.
Unexpressed Love
Copyright Jennifer Mullins Denial is a hard habit to break. I’ve been struggling to get a good night’s sleep for the last two weeks. I wake up groggy, and my body hurts. Sometimes, naps take the edge off, while I’m tense other times. Writing this the day before Thanksgiving reminds me that my body keeps…… Continue reading Unexpressed Love
Thanksgiving Over Time
After the death of a loved one, holidays are hard. Adjusting to this new life can mean adjusting family traditions as well.
Living With Vulnerability
Copyright Jennifer Mullins On a recent Saturday, I had just turned the corner and was within walking distance of my house when my tire made a strange noise. I got out and checked the tire pressure. They were all at the right level, and I couldn’t see anything wrong with the tires. Unfortunately, when I…… Continue reading Living With Vulnerability
Garden Contemplation
Garden Paths Walking through a garden is a cleansing experience that allows me to leave the world behind. My pace and breathing slow as I become one with the natural world. I often go to the Desert Botanical Garden in Phoenix, Arizona, enjoying its transformation throughout the year. Each time I walk a garden path,…… Continue reading Garden Contemplation
Being Grateful For Who You Are
Copyright Jennifer Mullins I was looking for a document the other day when I opened this letter of gratitude I wrote to myself in 2019 by mistake. I don’t remember why I wrote it, but I forgot about it. I’m glad I found it because it showed me where I was two years ago. It’s…… Continue reading Being Grateful For Who You Are
Meditation
Copyright Jennifer Mullins Grief took my breath away. My overwhelming emotions made it hard to get a deep breath. This, in turn, increased my anxiety, which soon became a constant companion. A few months after Mike died, I ended up in the ER, sure I’d had a heart attack. My tests showed a healthy heart,…… Continue reading Meditation
Books That Inspire
Copyright Jennifer Mullins Books have played an essential role in my life. I used to love mysteries until Mike died, and then the thought of dealing with death was too much. Also, they didn’t capture the grittiness of emotions that you go through when someone you love dies. Instead, I started reading books by people…… Continue reading Books That Inspire
Beautiful Bittersweet Life 
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